Human Beings: A Search for Understanding the Mystery

What is our essential being? What are our motivations, our ways of thinking and relating? Can we change or adjust our intent and behavior, and guide our lives? Where can our abilities take us? Taking on these daunting questions, PJ, an aging Bohemian, and Erin Yes, a young writer, held a dialogue on the nature of being human. This is presented in Tally: An Intuitive Life, by Mary Clark, All Things That Matter Press 2013.

Transformative Consciousness and Transcendence

PJ believed human beings are “born equally innocent.” He also thought we have a need to always perceive ourselves as innocent, “for a reason I have not yet discovered.”

This has been a subject of speculation: to reunite with God, the Life Force, or the Spark of Creation, or to regain the purity of a newborn. Perhaps it is in nature to be directed by one’s essential quality.

PJ was a successful book designer and writer on fine printing. Living in Greenwich Village in the 1920s, he and his wife were part of the Bohemian culture. For years they lived unconventionally, until it all came crashing down. PJ and his wife separated. He became ill from “an overload of guilt.” After dying in a hospital, he was brought back to life by a transfusion of his wife’s blood. He woke to find he was a ghost in a skeleton’s body, with no identity.

PJ began to study his stream of consciousness, and discovered a “subliminal stream that runs beneath.” He became “more aware of life as I was living it, or as nearly as one can, and I began to discover the true motives and consequences of my actions.”

Through his writing, he saw that he was reborn, or re-based, into a second innocence. All of the corruption and guilt that came with that previous life had been purged from him by his illness and death experience. He was as innocent as a newborn baby.

This made him think of what happens in childhood. “A child begins to form his own intuitive program” based on his amiable and hostile experiences with the world. As we grow older, we come to act and react instantaneously, and unconsciously, to any given situation with either amiability or hostility.

“If one has a healthy, amiable intuition, one responds innocently, and life continues. If one has a hostile intuition, because of that quirk in human nature, the need to perceive oneself as innocent: I cannot be wrong, one responds with hostility, but disguised as amiability.”

There is a way, he said, to deal with guilt without rationalization or justification. Human beings possess a faculty he called “perceptive intellect.” This gives us the ability to evaluate our behavior and its consequences honestly, that is, without defensiveness and self-righteousness.

“Perceptive intellect gives us the ability to consciously evaluate our actions and reactions, and adjust our intuition to be more amiable.” In other words, “we have the innate ability to move closer and closer to innocence all the time.”

Once a situation has been vetted, the perceptive intellect (pi) forms a concept and develops a course of action. This is a conscious state in which a transformation of reality can take place.

Starting a new venture can be experienced as a kind of birth, or rebirth, or rejuvenation. It can also cause anxiety and a thrill at the same time. How closely we keep in touch with the amiable intuition and our transformative consciousness, often manifest as a physical feeling, is reflected in the ease of the task, a sense of well-being, and ultimately, success of the endeavor.

All the experience of humankind, those living and those who have died, becomes part of “the universal stream of consciousness.” He felt that he had entered into “a particular part of the universal stream of consciousness” in his quest, and taken that into his life. It is “too much for a living person to tap in completely” but “even now, from time to time we tap into the universal stream of consciousness. We’ve all had such epiphanies.”

PJ’s theory moves from the particular to the universal: beginning with the building blocks of the Intuition, to the keen insight and organizing of Perceptive Intellect, to the universal sweep of Consciousness.

Through this transformative process, we may achieve a form of transcendence—one that enables us, as individuals and as a species, to guide our own evolution, and to create our destiny. Beyond this, we have the ability through intellect and the perception to guide it, our amiable intuition, and levels of consciousness, to explore the universe, and the Great Mystery itself.

Mary Clark, author of Tally: An Intuitive Life, All Things That Matter Press, available on Amazon, and Children of Light, on (Ten Penny Players).  To download, print or imbed “Human Beings: A Search for Understanding the Mystery,”  click here.

4 thoughts on “Human Beings: A Search for Understanding the Mystery

  1. Mary, I think here you have outlined PJ’s theory with great clarity. PJ’s life, is of course indisputably one thing, a life that positioned him amiably as the “professor of love” in Greenwich village. Life and theory have a tenuous relationship, because theory outlasts the particular life it relates to. The theory invites us (the readers) to go from one particular (PJ’s particular life) to the universal (all our lives) offering transcendence and participation in universal consciousness. The theory of universal consciousness, in Eastern religion, predates PJ’s speaking of it by several thousand years. The question now, as it always has been, is whether it makes any ethically justifiable sense to pursue such a universal perspective when, right now, we have particular tasks and responsibilities that require our attention. Ought we, indeed, have this sort of consciousness our goal?

    Being a professor of love in Greenwich village is life as art, a particular life and a particular, albeit extraordinary, artistic expression. It requires extraordinary art to carry it off. It requires extraordinary art to write about it as well as you have done. One has to wonder though, whether the call to transcendence is art overblown, art making itself grandiose. This is a question, not a criticism. The problem is in its religious overtones.

    PJ’s blood transfusion experience, in association with his proclaimed rebirth and innocence, evokes religious consciousness. Why a blood transfusion? Why not just drop acid? Why not drop out altogether? Why not find innocence in an embrace of nature? Why not just indulge in Romantic phantasy? Why this way and not that way?

    I’m writing for the sake of inviting a discussion of the questions. The questions are not hostile and they contain no barbs. They are only questions seeking truth. Love without truth, one might say, suffocates in its own amiability.

    David Turnbull


    • Thank you, David.

      PJ often used the word “renascence” rather than “rebirth.” He would say, I think, that altered states of consciousness often accompany major changes in our lives, but are not the same as, and do bring about, rebirth. The loss of a job, or dropping out, or other forms of “existent death” bring us the possibility of “rejuvenation.” He avoided religiosity in his thinking. I don’t recall him ever using the word “transcendence.”

      It is the “death experience” that rocked him to the core, not the blood transfusion. I never heard him use the word “transcendence.” The “universal stream of consciousness” was not something we could rise into, while still alive, but to “tap into” for its store of experience and comprehensions. We all contribute to it. “All the answers,” he said, “are already stored in the universal stream of consciousness.”

      I take full responsibility for the words “transformative consciousness” and “transcendence.” But it is my sense that by tapping into, or mingling with, the universal stream of consciousness, we enter into the eternal. It is also my sense that my collaboration with PJ continues. Is this a delusion or the universal stream of consciousness at work?



  2. I like where you are headed with this post. I agree with the premise that we can move toward more innocence as we age. It seems to tie in with the spiritual connection we have with God…(He is the Father, we are His children).

    We begin this life as children, we leave this life as “children” of God. Hopefully, we have accepted this fact during our adult lives here!



  3. Along these lines, I happen to be in the middle of reading THE BELIEF INSTINCT (subtitled “The Psychology of Souls, Destiny, and the Meaning of Life”) by evolutionary psychologist Jesse Bering. It’s an absorbing exploration of the subject (at least, the half I’ve finished), and I recommend it to your readers.


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